A curious feeling

My name is unimportant 

And my job you could call mean

But I like the work and I do it well

That's enough for me.

I think there was a time when I 

Could do, and did, much more.

I have dreams in which I captain the ship

And hear the ocean roar.

I've lived alone for all I can remember

That only means some six or seven years.

I would rather be nobody else,

I'm happy as I am.

All I need is in my way

And you see no one expects too much from me.

People cry, but no one asks me to advise them.

They want to know but they don't ask me how.

That's for someone else and not for me, I don't know.

Lucky me.

My friends think that I should be trying 

To find out who I was.

But I feel that road would bring me pain

And too much would be lost.

How I am is how I'm meant to be now,

Anyhow there's things I see more clearly

Than those whose heads are searching in the clouds

to make discoveries,

And maybe fail to see

What's on the ground beneath their feet, not hard to find.

People cry, but no one asks me to advise them

They want to know but they don't ask me how,

That's for someone else and not for me, I don't know.

Lucky me.

No one asks me to advise them.

They want to know but they don't ask me how.

That's for someone else and not for me, I don't know.

Lucky me - oh.

Thirty odd years before on some grass covered wasteland,

A boy is observed on his own who is watching and playing.

He's just made a pact with himself, 

If that rabbit over there

Doesn't go down yonder hole,

Let the ground beneath him disappear.

And it runs on past,

Fades away in the distance

But the earth doesn't move, nobody thought that it would.

He makes bets and pledges again and again.

Sometimes he wins, sometimes he loses, no matter,

Some might call him stupid

To tempt fate in this way,

But he really does believe in it

Each time the rules are made

There he goes again,

'If I never fall for a lady then Let me famous, let me be wise -'

         Now this one I like,

         It has a different ring,

         Instead of something trivial

         That's a serious undertaking.

         So I say to you,

         This time I think I'll act,

         I'll be a witness to this contract,

         I'll settle everything.

         So if you should ever fall in love

         You'll not only not be wise,

         You'll lose your memory and most of your mind

         And I've never been known to lie...

And now he's not really sure if he truly heard someone,

So what if he did, he thinks, for nothing will happen,

Though he seems to shrug it off

He won't play that game again,

Forever morning after the night before

When even one drop would cause pain.

And the years go by.

The incident is all but forgotten by one

But the other who lives it remembers that innocent fun.

For a while I could not lose this childhood spectre,

I felt others saw it too.

Now I notice a change in the way that people look at me,

And how those people look to me.

I see they're not so clever, I like them better for it too.

And one still more.

For now I see more clearly

Many things that passed me by.

Like Paul the visionary,

I see things in a different light.

For now I know what course to take.



Now at last I find a meaning in scenes of life

That made no sense to me before.

And the complicated structures of scientific knowledge

Once just mad, they seem so simple now.

And one I've known since childhood, she has new meaning for me too

These things are good.

For now I see more clearly

Many things that passed me by.

Like Paul the visionary,

I see things in a different light.

(It's a curious feeling)

It's a curious feeling to see the edge receding,

It seems the more I know, the more I don't know,

does this ever end?

If you listened to fanatics of the left or right,

You'd think they'd solve it all,

But they don't convince me.

Some statesmen, gurus, men of science and of philosophy,

All have an answer but they won't agree.

So if anybody tells you stories

Of how they're gonna change your world

Be they the Aga Khan, the ex Shah of Iran,

Or the Man from U.N.C.L.E.,

Say I don't believe you cos I know we don't need you.

In the name of religion or of any politician,

I'm sure we've heard it all.

If races always ran to form they never would be run,

Where would be the fun?

And if ever a man could understand everything there was,

He'd have no reason to carry on.

So when anybody tells you stories

Of how they're gonna change your world,

Be they the Aga Khan, the ex Shah of Iran,

Or the Man from U.N.C.L.E.,

Say come with me then to the Garden of Eden.

Put back our bites from the apple of the Tree of Knowledge,

Be like the beasts again.

How strange I never noticed

Your eyes, or the colour of your hair.

It seems to me you grow more beautiful

In every way.

With every single passing day.

Love crept in unseen,

Found me wanting

I didn't even have the sense to know

What I was missing,

Or what I was soon to feel for

You the laughter,

You a reason to live.

You the object of all the love I can give,

And all that I possess.

You who meant nothing when I was younger

It seems a memory from another life.

Did you ever think we'd meet this way,

Feel this way.

Did you really even care?

Some changes I foresaw,

But not this one.

This feeling I would not have understood.

Strange to think

I might have lived my whole life without

You the laughter,

You a reason to live.

You the object of all the love I can give,

And all that I possess.

You who meant nothing when I was younger.

Too good to last, how those four words ring in my ears.

A voice from the past has been heard again,

Whether its real or not, I can't say I care

But my memory's going and my mind is losing its grip.

I'm walking on thinning ice.

Soon I shall be taken down, drowned in blind ignorance.

Its hard to bear but harder still

To tell the one I care for,

Please to say love is here today, but its going away, going away.

How can I fight a fire that comes from inside myself

That threatens a total end.

So much to lose when I still had so much to learn.

Its hard to bear but harder still

To tell the one I care for.

Please to say love is here today, but its going away, going away.

Millions of people won't know what I mean,

None can appreciate somebody else's dream.

Thousands of reasons for staying alive

Explode into fragments,

Dissolve into nothing.

As I prepare for the oncoming night.

Already I feel a creeping coldness chilling my bones,

Dulling my sight and mind.

Soon there shall be only sand where once water flowed.

Nature dies and is reborn, but I shan't weather this coming storm.

Not for me to die with children around my bed

After a happy life,

Though rain will fall and the sun won't change in its course.

Its hard to bear but harder still

To tell the one I care for,

Please to say love is here today, but it's going away, going away.

Millions of people won't know what I mean,

None can appreciate somebody else's dream.

Thousands of reasons for staying alive

Explode into fragments,

Dissolve into nothing.

As I prepare for the oncoming night.

I feel it leading me 

Away to I don't know where.

I might be back someday,

But the people and things will change

And no one will remember me then.

Don't need no sympathy,

For soon I'll forget everything.

I feel it fading now,

And I see in the eyes of my love

Tears for how it might have been.

It sure felt good for a while.

Yes it was good for a while.

I found somebody to take my hand

To the promised land of the loved.

Now as the night draws in,

A dark with no promise of dawn,

I feel my eyes grow dim,

As I see in the eyes of my love

Tears for how it might have been.

It sure felt good for a while.

Yes it was good for a while.

I found somebody to take my hand

To the promised land of the loved.

Yes it was good for a while.

It sure felt good for a while.

I found somebody to take my hand

To the promised land of the loved.

If you know my story now,

Please don't tell 

Don't want to hear,

It can only bring me pain.

Maybe one day before I die

I'll open that door,

Maybe I'll cry,

But for now I'll live in the Dark.