The Human Equation

Best Friend: Did he open up his eyes?

Did he try to touch my hand,

or is my mind playing tricks on me…



Do you think he hears us cry?

Does he understand

We are here by his side



Wife: Why are you so concerned?

Do you really care

Or do you feel responsible?



Now the tide has turned

Won’t you try to clear the air?

Let your conscience be your guide…

Me:

I can’t move, I can’t feel my body

I don’t remember anything

What place is this "how did I get here?

I don’t understand, what’s happening"



Am I alone?



Fear:

You’ve been deserted, everyone has left you

You know it’s always been that way

Those frantic years, the people you’ve neglected

Now the time has come to pay



You’re alone

No one here is dancing to your tune



Me: Is this a dream or is it real?

Reason: Sometimes the dream becomes reality

Me: But I don’t know what to feel

Reason: Then I will guide you through this haze

Me: But who are you, why are you here?

Reason: I am you and you are all of us

Me: I can’t think, my mind ain’t clear

Reason: Then I will free you from this maze



Passion:

Can’t you feel it burn

Deep down inside?

Won’t you ever learn

Don’t try to hide



Can’t you feel that fire

Scorching your soul?

A wounded man’s desire

Out of control



Pride:

I can’t believe you’re giving up

That’s not your way

I can’t believe you’d pass the chance to make them pay



You’ve always had complete control

Never thinking twice

You always called the shots, a heart as cold as ice



Me: You’re all delusions of my mind

Reason: And so we are, we’re all a part of you

Me: Am I a part of some design?

Reason: The one design is in your head

Me: How can it be, you look so real…

Reason: We are as real as you imagine us

Me: I can touch you, I can feel…

Reason: Then take my hand and follow me



Passion: chorus 1

Pride: chorus 2



Love:

Close your eyes, listen to your heart beat

Surrender to its soothing pulse

Silence the cries, gentle and carefree

Good or bad, true or false…



You’re not alone



You’ll find me here whenever they oppose you

I am the strongest of them all

No need to fear these feelings that enclose you

I’m here to catch you when you fall



You’re not alone

I am here, dancing to your tune



Passion: chorus 1

Pride: chorus 2 + ad libs

Agony:

I am pain

I am real, I’m not a dream

I’m the chain

around your neck as you scream



Surrender now

You can’t beat death at his ruthless game

Make your bow

hang your head in shame



Me: I can’t believe there is no way out...

Agony: You’ll find you are wrong

Me: You fill me with doubt...

Agony: You were never that strong



Agony:

I am pain

I am the wound that never heals

It’s all in vain

No compromise, no deals...



Me: I can’t believe this is the end

Agony: It’s written in stone

Me: Where are my friends?

Agony: You have always been alone!



Rage:

(pain!) we lead, we hide as the pain leaves the rage inside

(motion personified alpha)

being here, welcomed by a sane mind

a travelled lie



Agony:

I am pain

I am the end, I am your wraith

Nothing remains

I’m the loss of hope and faith



CHORUS : Me and Agony



Rage:

we lead, we hide as the pain leaves the rage inside

(motion personified alpha)

being here, welcomed by a sane mind

a travelled lie

all the time, I had waited with rage

all the time, I was promised my salvation



Love:

I can’t accept this, we will find a way

Out of this cesspool of doom and dismay

Beyond this dejection there’s beauty and grace

A glorious future we long to embrace



Rage:

(pain!) all the time, I had waited with rage

(motion personified alpha)

all the time, I was promised my salvation

Best Friend:

No, I can’t seem to figure out what happened

On the brightest hour of day, no car in sight

No, I can’t seem to accept these strange conditions

No matter what they say, it doesn’t feel right



Wife: Do you think he’s seen it?

Best Friend: I don’t think he did

Wife: Do you think he knows it?

Best Friend:: I don’t think he knows

Wife: Do you think he’s been there?

Best Friend: I don’t think he was

Wife: Do you think he’ll die?

Best Friend: I don’t think he will



Wife:

No, could it have been a moment of distraction?

A creature on the road, a plane in the air...



Best Friend: Do you think he’s seen it?

Wife: I don’t think he did

Best Friend: Do you think he knows it?

Wife: I don’t think he knows

Best Friend: Do you think he’s been there?

Wife: I don’t think he was

Best Friend: Do you think he’ll die?

Wife: I don’t think he will



Wife and Best Friend:

No, will we ever understand what happened

Will the mystery be unveiled, or die with him



CHORUS Wife and Best Friend:



Passion: Do you think you’ve seen it?

Me: I don’t think I did

Pride: Do you think you know it?

Me: I don’t think I know

Love: Do you think you’ve been there?

Me: I don’t think I was

Agony: Do you think you’ll die?

Me: I don’t know!

Pride:

I hear voices, they’re talking about you

Can you hear them, do you know what they mean?

Try to remember, what have you been through

What do you know and what have you seen?



I can read the thoughts they’re conveying

So intense, can you feel them too?

I can’t believe it’s true what they’re saying

You’re far too strong, it couldn’t happen to you



Me:

But what if there’s truth in the words that they speak

What do they signify?



Pride:

You worry too much



Me:

And what are the questions to answers I seek

What will they clarify?



Pride:

You’re losing your touch



Me:

Help me out, this means nothing to me…



Reason:

Who are these voices, where do they come from?

Should we try to understand?

Mere illusions, hallucinations?

They might be vital to our plan



Love:

They sound familiar, they must be here to help you

All this confusion’s tearing you apart

You must be patient, time is the healer

Open up and let them in your heart



Fear:

Their guilty sighs

I think you understand it all

You were afraid to live, now you’re afraid to die



You fool yourself

You rose so high, you were bound to fall

Longing for the truth, you lived a lie



Reason:

I am convinced now, they are essential

They must be our way out of here



Love:

Listen and learn, let your heart lead you

And you will find the solution’s near



Fear:

Their guilty sighs

I think you understand it all

Longing for the truth, you lived a lie



Pride:

If they are right, we’ll fight for survival

Look to the future, but learn from the past

Confront the danger, face up to your rival

Take a deep breath, we have to move fast



Me

I think there is truth in the words that they speak

What do they signify?



Pride:

You worry way too much



Me:

I will find the answers to questions I seek

What will they clarify?



Pride:

You’re losing your touch



Me:

Help me out, this means nothing to me

Agony:

You’re alone in your bedroom

Hiding from the world, staring at the ceiling



Me:

Mother said ‘he’ll be home soon’

But he never was, and I knew how she was feeling



Fear:

You always let him down; ‘you’d never be like him’

He’d always break you, never let you win

No matter what you said, he’d always disagree

You swore that one day you would be

"better than him" one day you’d win



Agony:

You’re hiding out in the cellar

Aching and ashamed, covering up the bruises



Me:

And then he would tell her

How I tripped and hurt my head, how I’d always be a loser



CHORUS: Fear



Agony:

You’re all alone in your bedroom

How could you learn to care, when nobody cares for you



Me:

Mother said he’d be home soon

But he never came, as for me he didn’t have to...

Best Friend:

Let me take you back

To the time when we were chasing all the girls

Two maniacs

indulging in the pleasures of this world



So much to see, so much to live for

Questions to answer, places to go

So much to be, so much to care for

Deep down inside I think you know

You are free come back to me!



Look ahead and see

There are still so many borders we could cross

Just you and me

Making up for all the time that we have lost



Best Friend: So much to see

Me: He may be right

Best Friend: so much to live for

Me: I’ve got to fight

Best Friend: Questions to answer

Me: I will pull through

Best Friend: places to go

Me: take me with you

Best Friend: So much to be

Me: I will not break

Best Friend: so much to care for

Me: I must awake

Best Friend: Deep down inside I think you know

Me: I think I know

Best Friend: You are free

Me: I am free

Best Friend: Come back to me!

Best Friend: Aaaah, aaaah come back to me

Me: There’s no way out, my whole world is black!

Best Friend: Aaaah, aaaah come back to me

Me: I try to shout, something’s holding me back!

Fear:

It’s time to leave your sheltered cage

Face your deepest fears

The world is against you

You’re fighting back the tears



Me:

All the kids were watching me

I felt very small

I could hear the laughter

As I stumbled down the hall



Rage:

(human) Seeking to find, deep in the trauma as it leaves you behind

(human) Bleeding it gone into the profit of the competition

(human) Loving today, all of the feelings are they going away

(human) Ending it now, I’d rather hear about the where and the how



Agony:

The bigger boys they beat you up

Out here you cannot hide

No friends to help you

No father at your side



Me:

I swore that I’d get back at them

But I was just a kid

One day I’d show them

I wouldn’t rest until I did



CHORUS 1: Rage



Pride: You gotta prove you’re not like the rest

Reason: There’s no need if you know you’re the best

Pride: That’s not enough, let the other kids know

Reason: What’s the use, go with the flow



[Chorus 2] Pride: Be a man, give in to hate

Reason: You better learn to communicate

Pride: Better to learn to protect yourself

Reason: That’s not the way to get out of this hell

Pride: See that kid, wipe the smile off his face

Reason: He’s just like you, feeling out of place

Pride: I don’t care, let’s show him who’s boss

Reason: That’s not the way to get your message across



CHORUS 2



Passion:

Don’t rack your brains , let it all go

Savour the moment and feel your blood flow



Me:

Then I got back at them

Still acting like a kid

Then I showed them

But when I had, I could not quit...

Best friend:

It’s been 10 days

It shouldn’t last this long

The doctor’s mystified

Nothing’s physically wrong…



Wife:

But maybe in his head

He’s struggling to survive

Would it help if we talk to him?

Bring him back to life…



Best friend and Pride:

Do you remember that time

We were showing off our brand new flashy bikes



Wife and Love:

You looked so fine

Until you both fell over and then started to cry!



Best friend and Pride:

Do you recall that day

Fearlessly we climbed the highest tower



Wife and Love:

Then you became afraid

Too scared to climb down you stayed up there for hours!



Best friend and Pride:

Do you remember that time?



Wife and Love:

Do you recall that day?





Wife and Love:

Do you remember that time

Alone at last, naked by the fire



Best friend and Pride:

Then all your friends came by

They rushed in the room and you had no time to hide!



Wife and Love:

Do you recall that day

You proposed to me, and fell down to your knees



Best friend and Pride:

You didn’t know what to say

So she knelt down too for she thought you’d lost your keys!



Wife and Love:

Do you remember that time?



Best friend and Pride:

Do you recall that day?



Passion:

Can you see her light

Shining through the black

She’s reaching out to you

What’s holding you back?



Reason:

Can you feel her warmth

Glowing on your skin

Don’t repress the memories

Let them all in...

Me:

Friday night, I had a few

There she was, out of the blue

Thunderstruck, nailed to the floor

I couldn’t move, couldn’t talk…anymore



Love:

Of all these guys it’s you she desires

Secretly her heart is on fire

Waiting for you to ask her to dance

Go ahead, make your move now’s your chance



[CHORUS] Passion:

Do it right, do it right, we ain’t got all night

Do it now, do it now, I think you know how



Pride:

Let it out, let it out, now don’t mess about

Let her in, let her in, let the party begin!



Me:

There I was, nervous and shy

Struck with awe as I caught her eye

I mustered up courage and walked her way

Figuring out what to do what to say



Love:

Her heart sings as she sees you come near

The music fades, the crowd disappears

She weeps in silence as you pass her by

And she’s wondering why…oh why`



CHORUS: Passion and Pride



Agony:

Remember your father, well you’re just like him

Nothing but violence and fury within

Remember your mother, so lonely and sad

This will be her fate if you treat her as bad



Fear:

You’re afraid she might turn you down

All your hopes, dashed to the ground

Nobody loved you, nobody will

Why should you even try "but still"



Me: Friday night, I had a few

Wife: There was no need to talk

There she was, out of the blue

Wife: We just started to walk

Hand in hand, we took the floor

Wife: And we danced, and we danced, and we danced

I could move, I could talk "even more"



CHORUS: Passion and Pride



[Agony]

Reason:

Think hard, you’re lying here in a hospital bed

Disregard the emotions inside your head

Concentrate on the real world beyond your mind

It’s not too late to leave your burdens behind



Fear:

We won’t let you go

Take you down below

Dark crypts of your soul

Locked inside your head…

You’re better off dead



Agony:

Locked away, she lives in isolation

It’s been that way since he has gone

She’s been through a life of deprivation

She depends on you, her only son



Passion:

[chorus]She won’t let you go

Keep you down below

Dark crypts of your soul

Locked inside your head

You’re better off dead



Agony:

Where are you, can’t you hear her calling?

Nothing you can do, you have no time

There’s no one there to catch her now she’s falling

Why should you care, you’re doing fine



CHORUS: Passion



Reason:

Now she’s at rest, she finally found her peace

There’s no need to blame yourself

You must let go or the pain will never cease

It’s time to crawl out of your shell



Your mother died, the day your father left

A part of you died as well

Feelings of guilt will haunt you ‘til the end

You must fight hard to break this spell



But it hurts...



Fear:

You hear her voice, from beyond her grave

"Where were you, son, when I needed you

Is this your thanks for all the warmth I gave

Did you forget what I’ve been through?"



Then you hear his voice, cold and merciless

"You worthless fool, you let her die!"

And deep within yourself you must confess

Your ways cannot be justified



Pride: [chorus]

By now you realise you have to be relentless to survive

Repress your memories, bury your emotions and thrive!

It’s your life!



Reason: Now she’s at rest, she found her peace

Fear: You hear her voice from her grave

Reason: You must let go or the pain won’t cease

Fear: "Is this your thanks for all I gave"

Reason: A part of you died as well

Fear: "You worthless fool, you let her die!"

Reason: It’s time to crawl out of your shell

Fear: Your ways cannot be justified



CHORUS: Pride

Love:

Fate has come to warn

that you’ve far too long forsaken her heart



Move to the truth

breathe the sunlight burning in her open arms



Break the chains that

bind you to a past that feeds these bitter days



Seize your only chance

follow the stars that beckon you through blackened skies



Wife:

Can you feel me touch your aching heart

I can sense how much you’re missing me



Give me a sign, show me you’re there

I am sure you’ll find a way back to me



Me:

I can’t believe I turned so vile

How could I’ve ignored her smile?

She was always there to ease my pain

I’m so ashamed



I wonder why she stayed with me

How she endured my vanity

I wish I could go back and mend my ways

Is it too late?



Wife: Can you see, I swear it’s true, a teardrop trickling down his cheek?

Best Friend: Yes indeed, I see it too, could it be he’s hurting inside?

Wife: Don’t you think we should be glad he feels anything at all?

Best Friend: It could well be he cries because of us

Wife: Does it matter why he cries?

Best Friend: What’s going on in his mind?

Wife: Has he given us a sign?



Wife: Can you see, I swear it’s true, him clenching his right hand into a fist?

Best Friend: Yes indeed, I see it too, could it be he’s raging inside?

Wife: Don’t you think we should be glad he has any thoughts at all?

Best Friend: It could well be he’s angry cos of us

Wife: Does it matter if he is?

Best Friend: What’s going on in his mind?

Wife: Has he given us a sign?

Me:

I’ve always been creative, I don’t understand

Aspired to be an artist, not a business man!



Pride:

You need to show your old man you’re in control

To be successful you’d sell your own soul!



Me:

I’ve always been respectable, I don’t understand

I tried to be compassionate, I’m not a ruthless man!



Pride:

You need to show them you’re superior, you lead the field

No one opposes you, all men must yield!



Me:

I’ve always been affectionate, I don’t understand

I really love her, I’m not a heartless man!



Pride:

You have no time for commitments, they get in the way

Get down to business, there’s no time to play!



Reason: You can still change, and right what is wrong

Pride: But can you swallow me, am I too strong?

Reason: You have to get back now, it’s not too late

Pride: It’s not like you to resign to your fate

Reason: Your loved ones are waiting, break out of your cage

Pride: You have the power, give into your rage

Reason: Listen to pride now for once he is right

Pride: Listen to reason, let us be your guide

Fear:

This is what you dreamt about

Director of the firm

Will it be you, or your best friend?

He’s always been the better man and

He fits all their terms



What will you do to gain your end ...



Agony:

You remember he once told you

He tampered with the books

When he lost out on the deal

You’re digging up the evidence

…no one looks

You leave it there for all to see



[CHORUS]

Reason:

This memory burns inside

You can’t forget, you cannot fight or erase it



Passion:

Let it go, try to unwind



Reason:

You have to tell and set it right

You cannot run, you cannot hide so face it!



Passion:

Wake up, free your mind!



Fear:

You’ll never talk, he’ll never know

What you have done

But can you live with this betrayal?



Agony:

They found him out and let him go

I guess you’ve won

But one day the truth might be unveiled ...



CHORUS Reason and Passion (2x)



Me:

I have to talk and let him know

What I have done

I cannot live with this betrayal

He’s always been the better man

I never won

Now the truth must be unveiled

Father:

Look at you, lying there, defenceless and alone

See I'm no fool, I always knew you wouldn't make it on your own

Cos you're just like your mother, well where is she now?

You'll end up like her soon, 6 feet under ground, loser!





I came here to watch you bleed, oh how I love to gloat

if you had any balls at all, you'd grab me by the throat

You don't even look like me, ha! Not even close!

You're an aberration, some freak...I suppose, loser!

I had my fun, I'm going back to the place I don't call home

There's no one there who waits for me, but you won't hear me moan

My ex-wives all sue me, and with half my kids in jail

I'll still come out laughing, coz me? I never fail, loser!

Rage:

NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER! NEVER!

Killing it from afar, go tell it in a bar

You're killing it from afar my father!

Reason:

You’re driving home, it’s one PM

You cannot function, you’re a broken man

Your past is catching up with you

Only her tenderness can help you through



you see her smile at another man



Wife:

did you see me smile at another man?

It was only us, please understand ...



Reason: you see him hold her in his arms



Wife:

did you see him hold me in his arms?

We needed warmth, we meant no harm ...



Agony:

love left you, without me you're alone!



Reason:

Tears of sorrow fill your eyes

Your cold and wretched life flashes by

Is that your father standing there?

You turn the wheel, you no longer care ...



you saw her smile at another man



Wife:

did you see me smile at another man?

It was only us, please understand ...



Reason:

you saw him hold her in his arms



Wife:

did you see him hold me in his arms?

We needed warmth, we meant no harm ...



Agony: love left you, without me you're alone!

love wrecked you!



Passion:

you saw her smile at another man

now you finally understand

he held her in his arms

you’ve nothing left, it’s gone too far ...



Agony:

your memory begins to clear

now you see what brought you here

you try to open up your eyes

but the doubts leave you paralized



Wife:

I smiled at another man

please understand ...

he held me in his arms

we meant no harm ...



Agony:

love left you, without me you're alone!

love wrecked you, I am the oldest friend you know!

Reason: Now you know the truth, what will you do?

Me: I still can’t believe it’s true

Passion: You better believe it, and make them pay!

Me: There has to be another way



Pride: You cannot take this lying down!

Me: I gotta stand up, can you show me how?

Love: You must forgive them and open your heart

Me: It’s all my fault, it tears me apart!



Agony: It would have been better if you would have just died!

Me: No, I’ve got to win this fight!

Fear: But can you face them after all you did?

Me: I gotta reveal the feelings I hid



Best Friend: See him fight, he’s all on his own

Me: I need your help, can’t do it alone!

Wife: Listen to me, can you hear me shout?

Me: Let me out!!

Best friend:

My good friend, I hope you hear my voice

I must alleviate this ache

I’ve thought about this and found I have no choice

I have to tell you this for conscience’ sake



I felt alone, forsaken and afraid

Out of work and out of love

I needed someone to ease some of the pain

And she was there for me when times were rough



CHORUS

Wife:

My sweet love, my heart belongs to you

But I was lonely and the need for passion grew

You were never here, and even when you were

Most of my words would go unheard



Best friend: I’d be there to comfort her

Wife: We’d share our distress

Best friend: But we were never in love

Wife: Can you forgive us?



Best friend:

My good friend, well maybe I am wrong

I think you saw us on that day

I want you to know, she loved you all along

I hope that this will help you in some way



Chorus



Love: Don’t be afraid, her heart belongs to you

Passion: Don’t be afraid, don’t keep her waiting

Love: It’s time to rise, and tell them what you feel

Passion: You have to let them know

Love: Here the dream ends, this is real



Me: I’ll be there to comfort her

Passion: I know you will be!

Me: I’ll come back to life

Love: I know that you can!

Best friend:

See his mouth, he tries to speak

He cannot move, his voice is weak ...



Me:

My dear friend can you hear me now?

I’ll try to tell you how I feel



Best friend:

I feel the pain inside of you

Tell me please, what can I do?



Me:

Listen well to what I have to say

I have to tell you "of my betrayal"



Me:

I revealed the facts, it was clear

They spelled the end of your career



Best friend:

Yes I always felt that it was you

I repressed the thought although I knew the truth



Me:

The truth is out, I feel relieved

You hate me now you’ve been deceived?



Best friend:

Oh no, in a way we are even now

Come back to us somehow



CHORUS

Wife and Love:

Cross that bridge to the other side

Follow your heart, you can’t go wrong

Come with me, I will be your guide

And lead you back where you belong



Agony:

Welcome to reality, be ready for the pain

Welcome to reality, will it be in vain

Welcome to reality, nothing much has changed since you were gone



Passion:

Rise up and show the world you can be a better man

Rise up and show the world you care, yes you can

Rise up and show the world you’re taking your chance

Rise up and show the world!



Agony:

Welcome back!



Reason:

Welcome to reality, wake up and rejoice

Welcome to reality, you’ve made the right choice

Welcome to reality and let them hear your voice, shout it out!



Pride:

Rise up and show the world your battle is won

Rise up and show the world the old you is gone

Rise up and show the world your new life has begun

Rise up and show the world!



Reason and Agony:

Welcome back!



Fear:

Here inside the question burns

Are you sure of your return?



Me:

I am sure I deserve this chance

Now I understand it all



Fear:

It all seems so unreal to you

Can you decide what to do?



Me:

Yes I can, oh I will survive

Look at me "I’m alive"



CHORUS: Wife and Love



Best Friend: There is so much to see, there is so much to live for

Wife: Come to me, my love

Reason: You feel her warmth, glowing on your skin

Love: You’re never alone, I knew we could make it

Fear: Aaaaaaaarrrrgh!

Passion: Can’t you feel that fire, can’t you feel it burn?

Agony: Be ready for the pain, ready for the pain

Pride: Well rise up, your battle has been won, your new life has begun

Me: I’m alive, I won’t look back, aaaaah!